I am thinking of just deactivating my facebook account since I think it's the main reason why I am going through this phase in my life. :p
I wasn't really a friendly person to start with, I am a bit shy, and snobbish at first, but I get along with people once we get to know each other. Now I almost could dislike a person with just one judgemental word they say. Yes, I have a thing for judgemental people. Is this called a pet-peeve? I hate people who judges others with just something so petty, like a meaningless status post, or those who always have a negative reaction to a certain status post they know nothing about! They're everywhere on fb! Why don't they just live and let live? But that also makes me think if that makes me a judgemental person too. Should I think that may be they're just going through hard times that makes them want to release their stress on social networking sites? Hormones? I actually try to think about it that way, but it is still hurtful.
So in the real world, a dubious look, a simple side comment, affects me now too... I know I am being sensitive but I can't help but get hurt even if I am not sure whether the comment was not meant to be hurtful on purpose. May be the reason why I can't make myself be more active again on posting here or on anywhere on the internet, just like what I said on my Lose Yourself post. I just can't get myself to say something knowing that they'd judge you unfairly.
You see, I was typing this post late last night. I couldn't sleep thinking so I decided to just type it away. I got sleepy halfway, then just this morning, I saw someone commenting something disgusting on my last blog post. I deleted the content as it was somewhat obscene...
Gahd! How would I get over this "issues" I have when people are like this??
I know there's a quote that says, "Fake it till you make it." but then, I 'm tired of fake people too.
You thought they're your pretty close friends, you have conversations on those social networking sites, but came the instance when you realized they actually don't really care. They smile and say nice things in front of you, but they just judge you behind your back. So I stopped trying to make or keep in touch with friends. (I could count the people I talk to on a regular basis on just one hand!) It's hard to see which are those who see you just as important, so I might as well just stop trying. They just might find you befriending or getting in touch annoying, anyways.
Whew. That was emotional, alright.
I don't know, maybe I'm like this because I've experienced all the downsides and negativities of people.
Haha, I hate myself being like this.
I am just hoping that I get through this phase soon, then I'd come to accept human nature and see all the good in people again.
You see, I was typing this post late last night. I couldn't sleep thinking so I decided to just type it away. I got sleepy halfway, then just this morning, I saw someone commenting something disgusting on my last blog post. I deleted the content as it was somewhat obscene...
Gahd! How would I get over this "issues" I have when people are like this??
I know there's a quote that says, "Fake it till you make it." but then, I 'm tired of fake people too.
You thought they're your pretty close friends, you have conversations on those social networking sites, but came the instance when you realized they actually don't really care. They smile and say nice things in front of you, but they just judge you behind your back. So I stopped trying to make or keep in touch with friends. (I could count the people I talk to on a regular basis on just one hand!) It's hard to see which are those who see you just as important, so I might as well just stop trying. They just might find you befriending or getting in touch annoying, anyways.
Whew. That was emotional, alright.
I don't know, maybe I'm like this because I've experienced all the downsides and negativities of people.
Haha, I hate myself being like this.
I am just hoping that I get through this phase soon, then I'd come to accept human nature and see all the good in people again.
