crossroads

I was in a state of confusion and anxiety for a while (or maybe I still am).

One way or another, I'm sure all of you have been in my shoe and could very well relate...
Have I chosen the right paths in my life?
Not that I am regretting any decisions I've made, but I'm starting to wonder if I have decided for the better.


An incident just recently made me think If I should go and carry on living together with my whole family.
-The answer I gave myself is obviously yes. Nothing is impossible especially if it is for my daughter. So help me God.

I have been thinking if I should still work at my current job or just switch to a job that is less socio-stressful (yep I made up that word. lol) and something that could add up skills that I could use in the future.
-I still can't make up my mind on this one. It is fun to dress up in the latest trends. The perks of working as a fashion adviser, but I think I want to start becoming a florist.
Either way, looking for a new job is very stressful I cannot take it as of the moment!

We just bought a new home in the Philippines and I am not sure if It was the right timing.
-It has been one dream on top of my list to have a home in the Philippines but I wanted a bigger house. We opted for a small home so it wouldn't be that hard on the budget but it would still be a tight rope on our wallets, paying for a house in the Phils. while paying for all our expenses living here in Japan.
After much contemplation, the answer I gave myself is, If not now, then when? So my plan now is after finishing the payments for the new condo in the middle of the Metro, we will just buy a new larger house somewhere near any province. The condo would be for the daughter in the near future and we will live in the house when we grow old. Haha.

Another question is, when to go and stay in the Philippines for good?
-This thought been a never-ending loop. I am almost 100% sure I'd make more money working in the Philippines than working here, not to mention the friends that I miss, but there are still a lot of things to keep in mind. As of now, the "correct" answer is 2014 though I wanna fly as soon as today. This is prior to changes (of seasons and climates).


Sigh to growing up. I miss the times when the hardest problem you have was your assignment/project in school, how to make your crush see you, or what to wear to the weekend night out with friends. :P